2009年7月25日星期六

7月13日后

这次我就用英文吧
毕竟 你看不懂方块字 我英文差

Ok, well
I know that You have said that both of a couple shall pay each other some affords
to show how they concern about each other by their love.

OK I know, I haven't put any affords on you, so since that 13th of July, you have asked me to become your partner, yes, I have promised it. So, we started until now,
almost 2 weeks (for complete number is nicer).

I feel like, I have a boyfriend = single
WHY ? haha, I can say that I am too care about our relationship. I wait, wait and wait,
just for your message, but no. It is still same.
Yes, you do come and find me. But , everytime I message you, you seems like nothing to ask me for continue our chatting, besides you driving and busying for pressing mobile phone, seems like I have been boring you or some sort like that.

Erm, after your activities, you seems like do not like to share with me, need me to ask or something, no, i do not control your freedom or activities or what, but as I am your boyfriend, and you are my boyfriend, aren't it ? Don't you think you can share what kind of something you found interesting or wht to chat with me ?

Ya, as I said before, I am sensitive. Maybe serious until skitzophrenia ? HAHAHA

I feel like we are more like friends than a couple,
because I speak to you, I need to , how to say, like friends talking, no more,
no furthermore like couple chit-chatting.

As your message last time showed me, erm, like I asked you,
"Do you like me to say somethings like muacks or these kind of things"
and you replied :"anything you like, you can say, is not my mouth or finger anyway."
Do you think you replied this will be a hurting ?
Yes, it does.

Ok, come back to the subject, as the message above and many of your messages, I become more afraid of you, my firewall against you have been upgraded to higher level
for eschewing you. I need to think twice and twice, what should I message you to eschew that you will not reply me these kind of message, or can make you chat with me more.

HAHA, you can discover that all the problem is about mobile phone's ShortMessageService cause what I think and concern about.

Ya, we do not have time for dating or what, so the way that I can, is only using my mobile phone.

You have mentioned that, my topics with you, are not match. Maybe I have bored you, and you find nothing that is interesting or can exciting you, or maybe ....

Ya, you have said it, 有时不睬我不理我 并不代表你不喜欢我,
But now, Me, as a boyfriend of yours, Can I request you at least message me one time in 24 hours ? perhaps ? More initialy ?

You no need to report everything to me, because this will make you feel that you MUST report to me for every minute and I am controling you or what.
But,can you just message me what I am doing ?
Everytime I asked what you doing, ya, you did reply , but I am still fear of you. Because you like to skip people what have messaged you, either MSN, facebook or sms.

Ben, you know, We are really no difference like last time, except kissing or what. Why ?
Because, I am still afraid of calling you darling or dear or what some sort of that in fornt of our friends, because I am still fear of you and I need to do nothing when I am beside you and your friends.

You know what, Ben. haha, don't you feel that my messages all, containing "HAHA" or "LOL" or "HAHAHAHA"
these makes me feel that, we are more like just friends chit-chatting.

and another you know what, ben XD
We even can meet each other in an event or place, and we can, not even speak to each other and we can still continue our own things by not realising we are couple.

Ya, and I have found out that you can even forget you need to phone me or message me or find me, ya, for talent night, I did not follow my promise, So, I am not in any position to tell you you must to do so XD just telling you
hahaha or maybe, I am not really in your heart,perhaps.

and so, 11 days, no "LOVE" is still appearing yet between us, not even come out from our mouth.


haha Ben, it is just that I am unleashing about what I want to say in this 11 days.

This post will be seen when it is the time of our relationship. =)